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Feb/10

Antisocialness

No comments · Posted by Calvin in General

This has hit me hard, real hard. It is probably the reason for causing me 50% of my problems. I hate myself more now.

I am antisocial.

But, I do get along well with other people. So you probably do not really call it antisocial.

Anyway, this has happened again and again.. I am always not informed of what is going on in school. Last year, I did not enter in my CCA details, because I did not know of it, until a few weeks later, I was told that I will not be getting any CCA points. And just yesterday, I just knew of the JPAE, the Joint Polytechnic Admission Exercise. I did not participate in it, and therefore I am unable to enroll into a Poly. The exercise ended one week ago.

I do miss classes. In fact, I miss 30% of my classes. But, other people would probably be informed of all of these even if they do not attend school regularly. And why is that? Because they will have a friend, who attends school, who will inform them.

Yes, I do have friends. But I am never informed of all of these. Why? Is it because they think that an A student will probably know all of these even if he does not attend classes? Or, do they just do not bother to let me know? I would think the latter.

So this brings it back to the question. Am I antisocial? I guess not. Do I have any close friends? No. To be more precise, I do not have any close friends in school at all. There is not one classmate, whom I will contact regularly, be it SMS or MSN. All of them, are just friends, whom I talk to in class when classes gets boring.

So this brings me back to the point. I do not have any close friends. Friends who will go through thick and thin with me. Period.

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